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Study

2009-10-28T10:52:00.007+10:30

been really slacky and lazy especially after mid term hols.
was even lazy to update bout jonat's visit. heh
and it's now exactly two weeks to my first final paper.
what's worse is i haven even catch up on my studies =/

after every sem, i always tell myself,
next sem i musnt leave things to the last minute again.
and now here i am, on the last week of uni and still lost. =p
gotta pia liao lar!
less playing and working and more studying :)

next tues i'll be working for this event thing at the racecourse for melb cup day.
looking at my study state now i'm feeling a lil regret taking up that one day job.
but it's not nice to back out now after giving my promise a long time ago.
it can be a good experience, hanging under the sun for the whole day. right. heh
well at least i get to earn some extra cash :)
though i have no idea how is the pay rate.

i SO need motivation.

right now, this is me...

when i should be...

perhaps food can help..

I just need to remind myself always..

and more importantly..

okayy start studying!

ps. countdown to msia : a good long 29 days :)

Change

2009-10-17T23:35:00.004+10:30

Change is inevitable in life.
People grow with time.
Through different circumstances.

Changes can be good.
But the important question is,
Are we changing parallel with the ones we care for?

If we are not,
Doesn't matter if it's friendship or courtship,
Slowly, we will drift apart.

When two person start a relationship,
They become one and thus a different person.
Being their friend, you can't help but notice the changes.
You are happy for them and yet struggling to accept the new them.
However, whether you like it or not, you've got to learn to live with it.
For friendship sake.

Being in a relationship or not,
I believe friends should remain on our list of priorities.
Friendship shouldn't change.
It might not be easy,
But that's what I aim to do. :)

twenty one

2009-09-28T22:57:00.006+09:30

Since young, turning 21 is always a huge thing.
It marks the official start of adulthood.
More like young adulthood.

It was a bittersweet feeling, really when it dawns on you.
Sweet, cos you're a year more mature and now you're finally leveling up with the adults.
Bitter, cos you've past being a teenager and having the pass to act immature.
But you know what, come what may!
I'm looking forward to having an awesome year of being 21. :))

This year, there wasn't much activity on the birthday itself.
But i was really grateful for those that made the effort to make it a memorable one for me *smiles*

First, my sis and housemates never fail to celebrate with me.
This year had to go for an early dinner since they'll be working on the day itself.
And sunday's pay is too much to forgo.
I wouldn't want them to too =)
We went to the Wasai which in my opinion, serves the best sushi in the world.
Or at least in my world. for now. hehehe
We ordered the banquet thing and shared.

It comes with a boat of variety of sushi.

I'm still the youngest :)

The bill was exactly 111. 1+1 and 1 = 21. hahahaha

On the actual day at midnight, housemates prepared "surprise" cakes for me.
Not really surprising cos i knew what they were up to. Haha
But i was happy all the same :)

homemade by john. violet crumble cheesecake.
i din know violet crumble meant choc coated honeycomb lo :p

tiramisu cake. bought.

we rarely have group pics!
us in our pj's :D

They were all kinda tired so we quickly cut, ate it and cleaned up. Heh.
Thinking that was it for the night, I went to the room and go online.
Then one hour later, there was a knock on my door.
My housemate was calling me.
It's weird cos normally he'll just open the door after he knocks.
Then when i was about to get the door, the door opened.
SHOCKINGLY, there they were. SC, Wendy and Biaw.
They got their cams ready to snap pics of my shocked expression.
Biaw made green tea cupcakes and got roses for me on behalf of trix.
And there was wine tooo :)

roses i love :D

Then they all hang out at my place till the next morn.
While SC fell asleep during dawn. hehehee.
We played taboo all night long till we got sick of it. kinda. haha.

Then the rest of the day was pretty much a blur and dull day.
Mainly stayed home doing nothing cos everyone's busy. =p
But anyhow, it wasnt all that bad.
Received lots of wishes that day esp on fb.
Thanks a lot to all who took the time to wish.
You made me feel important for a day XD

The next few days, got a some presents from a few ppl.
They din have to do it, really, but I'm always happy to receive gifts. :))

Wendy got me a few sweet and nice things.
You're the best wendy.
I LOVE your card.
Thanks for the trouble you took to buy the present on behalf of another person. :)

some cards from back home. so sweeettt :)

The next day, housemate made another cake.
It looks beautiful lor :)

Thank you very much to all those that remembered and wished.
For those who came, called, texted, or fb-msged :)

Sometimes, I still cant believe..
I'm TWENTY ONE :)

Back to where we are

2009-09-28T21:02:00.002+09:30

Two weeks of hols, one down, one to go.
Have been putting everything on hold, it's now time to get back on track.
Hello assignments! Hello exams!
And hello Malaysia! (in 2 reaaaally long months)

The past week has been one of the longest week in my life.
We had so much fun and so many things happened.
So many things to blog about.
And yet, time past quite fast too. =p

Woke up super early today to send Jonat to the train station.
6am in the morn is super cold i tell you.
When you let your breath out, you can see fogs! (is that what you call it? =p)

The plan was for Jonat to fly to Adelaide, then we'll all drive down to Melbourne.
In the end, all plans were canceled.
We seriously suck in planning ahead.
Poor Jonat then had to buy the exp ticket back to Melbourne because we buy them too late.
I'm sorry Jonat! We're sorry.
I'll make sure I visit melbourne some time :)

It was greatly entertaining having you here for a week!
All of us go out almost 24/7 that it's almost weird not going out today. Lol.
It was a care free week and it felt so nice that the only thing we worry about was where to go next. Hahaha

Anyhow, gonna update more bout it in the next few post.
Now, gotta catch up on my sleep first. Hahahaha :)
I can see all the pimples popping out adi. =p

The last week was.......

wait for it......
Legend-..... wait for it.... -dary! :D

bakess and braids

2009-09-09T00:37:00.010+09:30

I totally forgot I have a blog for a while. hehehehe!

I've found a new love.
Baking! XD

First, it started off with a not so nice muffin.

steam banana muffin

Definitely dun look presentable. hahaha

But this will make up for it XD

it's a "J" !

Oh and months before that, we made popcorns from scratch.
Em meaning bought the seeds and pop it ourselves. haha

caramelized popcorn! i miss msia's popcorns =)

Then we were craving for guess what...
Here's a clue..

Batik cakes! please tell me you know what it is.
It's one of the awesome cakes my mum used to make XD

starting

getting harder

almost thereee.
added more milo towards the end cos we thought it wasn't chocolatey enough =p

oooo.. can't resist so stole a bite. hehehe

Forgot to take a pic of the end product after we fridge it for 4 hours.
But it was yummy! Full of milo's and chocolate and condensed milk =))

Then, today.. out of nowhere.. was tempted to bake cookies when I saw my housemate baking cake. teeheee.
So.. just took the recipe off the cooking choc's wrapper and tada!

butter cookies with huge chunk of choc in it

it's sinful. =p

On a side note...
I'm turning 21 in a few dayss! can't bliv it's finally my turn to be old. Hahaha
No big plans for it so not too excited bout getting old. =p
I wanna stay young forever! LOLL

Was studying for a test on yesterday and braided my hair outta boredom =p

before

after

Somehow the curls accentuated my highlights. which i like XD

KEITH HARRY RANTAI

2009-09-04T22:02:00.001+09:30

Someone once told me,
"No, that's not his full name!
It's longer than thattt. "

For a moment I thought I was a lousy friend.

But it turns out i was rightt!
So I'm not such a bad friend after all! *grinsss*
Hmpphh that lousy person suan me..
And, of cos, i din get away with it without some "naggings" from kif. =p

Anyway, Keith Harry Rantai, you're 21!
I abandoned my blog for so long that I forgot to write a post for you.
Thanks to pc, I've found a trick to make up for it. Hahahaha

Truthfuly, I've never really talked to you in person.
We're the hi and bye kinda friend.
But ever since last year, I accidentally found out you like someone.
And knowing the very strong curiosity I possess,
I have been pestering you bout it ever since.
Then we've chatted moree.
See, curiosity dont kill the cat!
It actually brought along blessings. haha =)

Well, I was and am glad that we've talked more than we did in sec school.
Hope you're doing great in KL.
And you know we are all here for you!
Have a greattt year of being 21!

We've never taken pics together yet.
So nahhh..... here's one of my fav. XD

Last but not least,
Happy 21st Birthday my fellow virgo! =))

Stay or Go ?

2009-08-24T15:15:00.003+09:30

Amazingly, it has been raining non-stop for the whole day!
Australia shouldn't be lacking water now eh ?
Nah.. I think it still does. Heh.

It's so nice to just stay at home,
Clothed in layers of garment,
Wandering around,
Listening to the pouring rain,
And NOT getting wet.

There's a lecture at 5 later and I'm dreading it.
Should I stay at the cozy place that I am ?
Or go out, get wet and cold ?

Bleh, gotta go lecture la.
I'm turning over a new leaf arent I ? =)
Plus, this lecture is supposingly important cos it has to do with assignments.
Solver ? No idea what is it.

Gonna be a good girl, go for lecture and borrow that CFT textbook from the reserve library.
Study study !

Put on the boots, the windbreaker, the scarf and you'll be alright :)

Binge

2009-08-17T21:04:00.001+09:30

I just realized that I'm not very good in taking care of myself.
Junk food always tempt me and I never usually get away with it.
So that may explain why my sickness got worse.
More severe coughing and headache.
Well part of it may be due to the absence of medicine also la. Heh.

I don't know why I am never full.
Oh wait, I AM full. But my mouth never stops itching for food!
I cooked porridge for lunch and ate like 2 bowls of it.
Then went to city to pay uni fees and ended up eating lunch again.
Came back watched a movie then heated the porridge to eat.
Half an hour later dinner, eat again.
What's worse, right after dinner, I felt like munching on something.
I'm so gaining weight.
If the scales doesn't show, my tummy is.
I look like I'm one month pregnant adi. LoL.
This is truly what they call binge.
I think it's cos I'm bored, I'm lazy to study and I just had to find something to do.
And eating is how you enjoy life :)

Gotta start going back to the gym sooon.

Untitled. Slack. Work. Sick. Parade. Weather. Untitled :)

2009-08-15T23:09:00.009+09:30

Working less and more time at home is making me slack even more!
Surprisingly I'm more motivated now after work than any time during the week with just studies and lazing at home.
I know that I'm not supposed to skip classes anymore but I got to admit that I did. :(
Blame it on the lecture recordings that they provide! hahaha
Oh no, dun blame them. I need the recordings XD

Today at work, an Indian guy came to try out.
He claimed that he has experience in hospitality before and studying hospitality so I thought he could actually help out today considering that it's just me on today. Again.
Communicating with him really tested my patience that's for sure. Haha.
Then when he was serving drinks he kinda tilted the tray and the lemonade fell over and spilled ALL OVER the place.
All over the little girl's clothes.
Imagine lemonade on you. Imagine the stickinesss.
I think I found hint of tears in the little girl's eyes. Poor girllll.
Her dad then had to send her home to get a change.
Right after that, I've never seen the Indian guy again. Loll.
He just left through the front door without telling us, without us knowing.
The funny thing about life :)

I'm down with sicknesss :(
At first it's just sore throat.
Then it took away my voice.
My voice sound so sexy now btw. Hahahaha.
Then coughs start coming in.
And now i'm finding hints of flu.
Could it be swine flu ? :|
Two of my colleagues had them few weeks back.
But I've never seen them since then.
So maybe not. :)

Yesterday went to BU's Fashion Parade.
And it's awesome. :)
I prolly screamed once or twice and made my sore throat worse. Hehe.
But it was fun ma! XD
Wait till I get the pictures from Cindy then I'll upload them here.
The theme was Alice in Wonderland and the clothes are stunning.

Some looks expensive and definitely not affordable =p
But we did have an encounter of biasedness at the entrance.
Cindy didnt have ticket beforehand and we were kinda late when we reach and they had stop selling tickets cos the auditorium was packed.
I told them we had seats reserved for us adi and they couldnt care less.
I've seen ppl just paying them and going in because they have ppl waiting for them inside.
Then when a kind lady finally let Cindy in, a group of other ladies saw us in a group and went
"What is this! Who let these ppl in??"
We quickly said we had tickets originally and just had to sneak a friend in.
Then they go, "Go to the mother's room. Do not go anywhere else!"
Mother's room is right at the corner with glasses all the around it to prevent baby cries to be heard in the main auditorium.
I think the fact that we are Asians did affect their tone towards us.
I was kinda pissed at first.
But come to think of it, none of us is perfect.
Even me myself am bias towards a certain group of ppl.
No names or races are to be mentioned. :)
So yea I'm not holding any grudges towards them.
They DID do a fantastic job in making the fashion parade a success. :)

Today's weather was just like spring-summer.
Even at night it's just warm-cool breeze blowing.
It felt just like back home. XD
Minus the humidity. Heh
But knowing Australia's funny weather, next week will prolly go back the winter state.

Owhhhh the tiredness from work is finally starting to set in.
Sleeping early for church tom! :)

Yong Chien Nying

2009-08-08T00:35:00.013+09:30

I'm dedicating this post to the sweetest girl i know.
Wendy :))

It's more than a month since your 21st and I owe you this! Haha

I still remember the first time I was here in Adelaide. Everything was new and foreign. It was so nice seeing a familiar face lor! And I dunno if it's just me, but I feel happy just meeting ppl from Malaysia. What more to say someone from the same hometown and high school. :D

March 2008 at rundle

The fringe festival 2008

Dinner with sc and biaw. May 2008? :)

Somewhere in between

Fashion Parade August 2008

Royal Adelaide Show September 2008

You were the familiar face in the crowd. You've opened my eyes to things I've never noticed. You are different and inspiring. Different as in, you're into old hot men and dun wanna get pregnant!=p Inspiring as in, it amazes me how you know what you want and what you dun :) Your humbleness aspires me to fix my weaknesses and be humble myself. But between those differences we might have, I've found a great company and a friend for life.

Thanks for always being there when I needed someone! There was once when I was so emo the whole day and you came out to meet me right after your class and accompanied me to Hungry Jacks. Just to comfort me. You prolly won't remember but it's those small little things that made me really grateful for a friend like you.

Wasai March 2009

Library April 2009

On the tram April 2009

It was a joy to see your shocked embarassed blissful face when we surprised you with a cake at midnight at your door. It was worth it all. :) Worth us sneaking pass your unit and hid in the dark stairs next to your unit trying to light the fragile candles.

sc trying to figure which one is sharper for your cake :)

Happily turned 21. Now you can vote! :)

Like every birthdays, there's...

wishing

candle blowing

and cake cutting!

But there's also one thing that all traditional birthdays should have.

*grinnnnnss*

the cutest ppl i know. oh waitttt.... are they ?

ahhh definitely! :D

And what's a celebration without champagne ?

busy busy busy

but no matter what, still have time for groupie pic! :)

Adorable or whatt... Hahaha.

then sc just couldnt resist showing off his adorability too. :)

haiya sc just have to go spoil it one lor. hahahaha

Eh I've just realised that I've lost the recorded birthday song in my cam!
The one where pc, kif, shane, tanpin, and jonah sang for wendy over multi conversation.
Such a waste! But nvm I still have another in my phone. :):)
Dun wanna sia soi you guys here la. You all know what to do la ho? hahaha.

Whoa i think this is by far the longest post i've written.
Anyways congrats again on turning 21 Miss Wendy Yong! Hugss :D

ps. went to uni to do my tutes this morning. had to use the specific computer in Napier 133 cos that's where they have Stata installed. only. turns out.. all the computers in that room are O-L-D computers. like those that you first have when you were like in pri school? the screen super small one. walaoo.. not that i wanna complain la but it's sooooo sllllloooooowwww lorr. if it wasnt for the tute i have to do and pass up, i would have given up on the comp adi. takes me like triple the time to just to log on to the computer. but it has been ages since i saw one of that ancient comps la :) n it just reminded me of how advanced and how much technology have grown in such a short time.

Wind

2009-08-06T18:45:00.013+09:30

I think the wind is cool.
It's what they use to illustrate the presence of God.
You can't see it but you can feel it.
Every time the wind blows, it reminds me of it :D

Imagine you're by the beach and you're just standing there.
Feeling the breeze on your face.
An awesome feeling isn't it.
Can emo at the same time too. Lol.

Some wind are gentle and soft.
And some are just plain rough and strong.
Today, the wind was mighty strong.
I was nearly blown away!
But still awesome anyhow. :)

PS. I've finally received the guitar string.
Now I've just got to wait for my sis to come back to help me fix it.
Since my knowledge in that = zero. Heh
Soon I'll be able to learn guitar! XD

PPS. Airasia KL to Aus is only RM150 one way including tax.
It's almost like Kuching to KL!
It just amazes me. Haha :)

Updates

2009-08-05T23:35:00.005+09:30

I seriously can't think of what to blog right now.
When I'm out, I always come across stuff where I'll say to myself,
"Oh, that'll be a good thing to blog about!"
Really.. there's lotsa things to write about.
Then after coming home, I just want to slack and eventually those things just left my mind.
So now I'm with... Nothing.

Next time I should take a diary with me and jot down whatever interest me. Haha

So updates.

My internship for end of the year is confirmed!
Doing them in KPMG Kuching. For 2.5 months.
So, Kuching mates I'll see you very often! =)
Wendy got into KPMG too. Yay!

I've got 2 cousins getting married end of the year.
Weddings! I loveeee XD

I see flowers blooming in my backyard.
One more month, spring is heree! =)

Still gotta work on my study skills. =(

Housemate just bought a new game.
Scattergories.
Turns out, super fun! Though you really need to crack your head.

For your comment the other day, Kif.

Now can see ?

Have a good week you all! =)

First Week

2009-07-30T00:25:00.010+09:30

It's back to uni!
Remember how it felt like in sec school when you go back to sch after a long hols?
For the first time in the one and a half year I'm here, I actually had that feeling this sem.
And this time, I'm ready to embark the new sem! =)
The business school didn't allow me to do cross institutional so I have to forward my third year sub in order to take my failed sub next year.
And because they changed the 4units system to 3units system during my year, I'm overloading by 1unit considering that a 3rd year sub this year is 4units instead of 3units.
It doesn't mean more workload I think, just more money :S
An extra of 700aud! My goshh.

First day of uni was very productive indeed.
Me and Wendy have been talking bout joining the gym since .... last year.
And this sem, we finally did! =)
Not only that, we were there at 8am. Haha.
Haven really woke up that early before during this winter. It's superrr colddd! Brrrr~
I was on the treadmill for like 30 minutes.
But it was more like 2 minutes jog, 15mins walk, 2 minutes jog then walk again. Lol.
And I tried the rowing which is actually less tiring than the treadmill and more fun =)

The school of profession opened up a new student hub this sem.

And it's seriously nicee.

We finally have our own hub with new computers and meeting place! And even televisions.
Now the amount of fees we pay is more worth it. =)

First day, they gave out free hot chocolates. With marshmallows. Yummmm..

And there were lotsa stacks of post it notes everywhere.
Being the msian that we are, we took one whole bunch of it =p
There were helium ballons everywhere too and I had the urge to bring one home.

But ended up not. Heh.

Last three weeks of hols was pretty much just work and staying home.
Then just before uni starts, Wendy introduced her fren who just came here to do twinning.
We went to ikea then Harbourtown then early dinner with Sze Ching.

Imagine waking up to your reflection everyday :p

At dinner, Sze Ching did a nice thing to Wendy. =)

He shaped the rice into a bowl shape for her! Hahahaha.
The rest of us, we just use bowls. =p

salt and pepper squid XD

sweet and sour pork

Later, we went to the belgian bar and hooked the bar for the rest of the night.

Maybe cos Josh was from Sarawak too, we had lotsa fun talking.
Or maybe it was just because he can talk. Hehe.

This winter I've came across quite a few rainbows.
Have I mentioned that I lovee rainbows? Hehe
It's quite rare that you see one marr =)

Harbourtown

Way to Marion

Home

Isn't sunset just beautiful too?
Ahhhh.. that just made my day! :)

Twisteddd

2009-07-25T14:09:00.002+09:30

Uni's starting the day after tomorrow and I still haven untangle anything.
My timetable still cannot be confirmed because the lady at Business School haven approve my cross institution thing.
I gave her one whole week adi lerrr.
Really worries me if I still can get in this near to commencement!
If I dun get in, I'm pretty much screwed.
I can't take my third year sub next year as was planned.
Noooo. That cannot happen =(

And because I dun have a complete timetable, I still can't decide which day I'm free to work.
I can't decide if I want to work 2 or 3 days!
With 2 days, I dun have to rush to work from uni.
Ie. dun have to work that hard.
BUT.. I'm gonna feel soooo bad using my dad's money.
How how howwww?

Argh. Failing a sub is SO not fun at all.
I think I took the word fail for granted last time.
When I couldn't answer all the quests, I will tell ppl that I'm dead and I will fail for sure.
But actually what I meant was I'm gonna get real low marks.
Which prolly wont lead to failure.
Now, when I see those smart studious ppl saying they are gonna fail because they din answer the paper as well as they expected, I actually feel annoyed.
Be grateful that you're not failing! hahahaha. =p
Okay, totally random.
No offense whatsoever intended.
I'm just being emoo. :)

My lappie

2009-07-23T00:47:00.003+09:30

My laptop is finally back to normal!
I've never been so happy to have my laptop =)
Been stealing my sis' laptop from time to time.
It's like embracing freedom not having to fight for a laptop. Heh
I've been dreading to bring my laptop to the hp service centre and guess what?
All I need is a phone call and all is done!
The operator guided me step by step to fix my problem.
She was so patient that I felt bad for not agreeing to give a review on her to her supervisor.
I was rushing to go out ma that time. =p
But anyhow, now it's fixed! Yay!

Guess what?

2009-07-22T02:32:00.007+09:30

Guess what?
I highlighted my hair! a supposingly blonde colour.
Thanksss Wendy!
But it prolly din turn out as blonde as expected.
My sis fren said it's more of golden. like goldilocks. Lol.

Guess what?
The bleach solution had this reaction when you put it there to stand.

It somehow expanded?
We saw it overflow from the bottle and I stupidly used smt to cover it.
And......
It exploded in Wendy's room after a few hours. :S:S
What kinda solution is thatttt???
Naughty solution! messed up Wendy's room.
SORRYYY Wendyyy!

Guess what?
I came home today after sleeping over at wendy's and saw my sis fren in the living room.
First thing she said, what happened to you?
I tot she was talking bout my highlight.

Then she goes, you look like "zhong guo mei"! LOL
She was talking bout my fringe. Hahaha.

Guess what?
I had bak kut teh today. Yum yummmm.
Yesterday Wendy cooked wontons for us. Yummmmmm too :D

And she cooked kaya the day before. Yuummmm.
And my sis tried cooking popcorn today.
With caramel! Yummmmmmmmm. Heheh

Guess what?
It prolly doesnt show my highlights. or rather dye.
But here goes =)

Guess what?
Winter fogged up the windows and we had fun with it ;)

Guess what?
I'm sleepy. Nitey nites! hehe.

bored boredom boring

2009-07-20T00:03:00.003+09:30

I'm bored. for no reason. =p

I was not late for church today! Well was mb a few minutes late but still...! =)
Was so tired and sleepy after church.
Wanted to take a nap before work and yet ended up watching movie.
The holiday. Eh pretty good le! So touching ;)

Blehh. Have to definitely go fix my laptop tom.
And highlight my hair? XD
Got 2 days off starting tom. Then it's work all week till uni reopens. :S
Then gonna concentrate on studies adi. MUST. haha.
My dad purposely called that day to ask me how many days I'm working now.
The way he asked me not to work so much was actually touching.
I nearly swell up in tears listening to him asking me if I still wanna work.
And he said, if I dun wanna work it's fine also.
But of cos, I can't let them pay my full expenses. They are paying so much adi.
So I am STILL gonna work. Just probably 2 days a week.
At least I will still be helping out with the rent la. :)
I am blessed with good parents.
We might not be intimate like the others, but I do know there's love in the family. XD

During church I din know how much to tithe when it came to offering.
I haven exactly been precise and frequent with my giving.
So I thought I should give more than I gave last week.
And today when I got my pay, I got a lil extra.
Though not much, at least it's smt right? =)

I'm bored and sleepy.

Wishes

2009-07-18T15:17:00.002+09:30

16th July
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MELISSA KHO XIAO CHING!
More than 8 years of friendship and still counting!
Hope you had a blasttt on your 21st.
Eh I just realised that we didn't take any pics together when I was back!
How can?? hahahaha.
Anyway, thanks for the breakkies together. =)
I'll see you soon. Just 4 months away XD
Laksa and kolo mee again? yum yummm.
This time, remember to bring camera =p
HUGGSS

17th July
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY SHANE LAW SUAN SHENG!
Hey old man, I'm still waiting for you to tell me your secret.
Tell me la before your amnesia gets worse =)

Fail

2009-07-15T00:35:00.005+09:30

I have failed.
Failed my parent's trust and hope in me.
I look at my result page, my eyes went directly to Financial Accounting.
33 F.
SOO far from being pass. Arhhhhhhhh!
What have I become? I don't normally fail in finals.
Well not before uni that is.
Sometimes I wonder if I've picked the wrong course.
But I can't blame anyone else but me.
I skipped classes, never revise, study only at the very last minute.
I've taken EVERYTHING for granted.
I picked up as many shifts at work as possible and I never thought how it'll affect my studies.
Now I've gotta pay extra 2k to retake that sub.
That's like my 3 months pay.
Exactly not worth it at all.

This is a painful lesson to learn but you know what?
It's definitely one that'll stick to me forever.
Now I just gotta find a way to mend my mistake and put everything back on track.
Why don't they offer FA in the coming semester too??
Now I don't how I can still take my 3rd year subs next year.
Which only means, I MIGHT not be able to graduate end of 2010. :S
Fingers crossed!

Anyhow, I should be thankful that I didn't fail more than one sub.
I seriously thought I screwed up Business Finance too.
There was actually a sense of relief too when I was looking at my results.
I even escaped supplementary exams for BF.
That was really a miracle and thank GOD!

I'm gonna study harder study harder study harder study harder =)

On a side note, I've just lost 200 plus credit on my phone.
Just because I reloaded 10 minutes LATE.
Actually no, I was on time.
But optus just wants to follow Eastern Australian Time.
Which is 30 minutes later than here.
What?! I live in South Australia, of cos follow the time here right?
Blehhhhhhh.
I know I'm being ridiculous la. =)
But seriously, it's a pity waste lorrr.

Anyway..
Thanks to those who kept me in their prayers! XOXO

Al Amin

2009-07-13T01:26:00.004+09:30

It's so nice to be able to talk to you again.
I think the last time we spoke was.. ages ago! haha
Hearing your voice again reminds me of the old times.
Where you would stay up late just to keep me company when I was at my lowest moment.
I really did appreciate all that.
Without you, it'll probably be harder than it would have been. Much harder.

So you've turned 21 today. Congrats!
Who would have thought ns will bring friendships that'll last forever?
You've heard me cry a hundred times and seen me when I was in my deepest trough.
Yet you've stood by me and continued believing in me.
Where else will I find a friend as nice as you?

You only turn 21 once so go all out today mister!
Play all you can. Hahahaha.
You take care there ya and I wish the best for you!
You're gonna do great, you know that? =)

Last but not least,
Happy 21st Birthday Ming!

Pain

2009-07-10T06:26:00.002+09:30

It's 6.30 in the morning and I'm still awake!
I wish I can sleep but I can't.
So tired after a whole day at work and went straight to bed after celebrating housemate's bday at midnight.
Mana tau, I was only half asleep and I kept rolling on the bed.
My body is tired, my mind is awake, and my stomach hurts.
Or precisely it was somewhere between the stomach and the heart.
At first I couldn't figure out what it was and I tell you, it's frustrating!
Sat up and tried sleeping like that for an hour. Still there.
Took 2 tablets of antacids and warm water. Still didn't help.
My housemate who woke up for work suggested it's heartburn.
So googled it and turns out what I'm experiencing is siding towards that.
"Heartburn or pyrosis is a painful and burning sensation in the esophagus, just below the breastbone usually associated with regurgitation of gastric acid."
"Relief is often found by raising the head of the bed, raising the upper body with pillows, or sleeping sitting up."
It didn't make the pain go away but it was better than lying down.

Causes
"Eating a big meal causes excess stomach acid production, and attacks can be minimized by eating small frequent meals instead of large meals especially for dinner."
I just had a huge meal after work. Very spicy meal. :S
"Acid fruit or juice, fatty foods, pretzels, coffee, tea, onions, peppermint, chocolate, or highly spiced foods are to be avoided, especially shortly before bedtime."
I had 2 cups of coffee today and loads of tea.

Then I thought milk might help since it helps gastric.
"Contrary to popular belief, milk is not a recommended antidote to heartburn."
Apparently it'll make the pain worse although it might provide a momentary relief.
Arhhh.. I took antacids and it didn't help and I don't have soda water.

Got work at 11.30 later and definitely need some sleep.
Cannot depend on coffee anymore to keep me awake.
Not after I have experienced the consequences!
Gonna try and get some sleep now. Sitting up.
Btw, it's raining :)
Have a good day people!

What goes around comes around

2009-07-08T00:05:00.004+09:30

My laptop is down. It just doesn's want to log me in!
You know I have been such a good owner, so please drop the tantrum, can? ;)
After all, you're only 5 months young! hehe.

Finally met up with Siew Mei and Jen Ai today.
I still can't believe I didn't even bump into Siew Mei once ever since I got here.
That's one and a half year!
Tell you the funny thing is, we were even on the same flight back here in Feb.
There were so many chances of bumping into each other and we didn't.
First there's LCCT, then in the airplane, then at the Perth Airport.
How "unfated" we are.
Seriously funny when we both found out we were at the same place but prolly at the opposite ends. haha.
It was great catching up with them.
I realised that I have real nice friends with a good heart around.
Makes me aspire to be like them. Hehe!
Humility is definitely not easy I tell you!

Tonight's conversations made me think a lot.
Relationships are unpredictable.
It comes and goes.
Sure there's happy ending to some.
But some are just not meant to be.
Even if it's a 7 years relationship.
Even if you two looked like the most perfect couple.
Anything can happen beyond your wildest imagination.
Whatever it is, you just got to continue living in hope and the right one will come one day :)

41st Post

2009-07-06T22:40:00.002+09:30

I'm dedicating my 41st post to the man that turned 21 today.
Back in high school we both lived in two different world related only through the school.
We even went to the same tuition where he sat at the back and I in front.
It's really funny when you think about it.
We had many mutual frens but the only conversation we had then was just hi and bye.
Now, I can't say that I'm his closest fren, but I have seen what I have not seen before.
I have reached a place I've never been before.
I've uncover a great man beneath that cool surface and discover warmth.
Life works in an amusing way.

Happy 21st birthday Lun =)

Goodbye Exams

2009-07-04T00:52:00.006+09:30

FINALLY! I don't know why I'm overjoyed when I finally put down my pen in the exam hall. Even had to refrain myself from smiling to myself while waiting for the lady to collect my paper. I know I'll look silly if I get caught. Heh. Even when I finished work just now, I was hyperactive. Came home, still happy :D Maybe it was due to the extended period of exams. Two weeks! It used to be just one week. Or maybe it was just pure torture studying. Especially when no matter how hard you try, you just don't understand the topic. It's frustrating. And tempting to give up.

It feels like I've been abandoning my blog for weeks. To my surprise, I've successfully refrained myself from surfing the net most of the time during the last 2 weeks. Which explains the many notifications on facebook, mails, and unread blogs. So many to things to blog about! I have a feeling this is gonna be a long blog. So lookout!

There's Wendy's 21st. Which I will blog on a separate blog :)

My new fringe. Yes I'm back to having fringe! One word. Disaster. Hahaha. My sis cut it for me so well...

I still can hide it with my hair down but with it up I look like the pure Cina from olden days. I think my hairstyle's getting boring. I wanna do something drastic to it when I go back. Curl it? :D

I don't think it'll be interesting to hear me whine about my exams. So I'll just say, I need lots and lots of prayers. And a miracle. Make that miracles. :) I can't bear the thought of having to REPEAT a sub. 14th of July, the life or death verdict.

Including supplementary exam, which I hope I'll pass, there's 3 weeks of hols. It seems so short with endless list of to do things. First, of cos there's work. Working as much as I can now so I can cut down when Sem 2 begins. :)

I've been reading this book on and off. The Singletini. Bought it in the second hand shop in Kuching last Feb with Meli. Till now, I'm still not at the last chapter. Hee Hee. But it's really nice la, one of the reason I'm taking my sweet time.

It doesn't describe those "intimate" scenes with great details like typical romance book, which I like. I know someone who will love "those" kinda storybooks though ;) Anyway, this book I'm reading inspired me to buy more books to read. I was looking for Wendy's present last week and came across lots of attractive books. Yes, the only reason I'll be attracted to a book first is by its cover. I'm the chickflick girl :) One of these days, I've gotta go do that book hunting which I didn't do that day.

Found an authentic Malaysian food here in Adelaide. Woohoo~ It's really authentic that it feels like you're back home visiting during Raya. It's pretty cheap for somewhere near the Uni. And students get discount ;)

There's no much choices actually. Just nasi lemak or nasi campur. Haven't try the Mee Goreng yet but the roti canai not so authentic. I miss roti canai! Roti planta. Yum yum. With hot Teh Tarik. Cannot go without it. Hehe.

I was telling my sis that I'm falling sick so I asked her to buy herbal tea. She got one from the Asian Mart and when I opened it, I got the shock of my life.

Bees in herbal tea?? What the........ I thought I opened the wrong package. You see, the packaging was full of chinese words. Obviously China product and I can't go too well together. But apparently, after googling, it's not bee. It's cicada. If you look closely at it, it's hollow inside. The shell of cicada is often used in traditional medicine. "Cicada's healing effects are due to its antispasmodic (reducing spasms), antipyretic (fever-reducing), and sedative (sleep-inducing) effects." With one eye closed, we popped the cicadas, which were only 2 of them, into the mixture and brought it to boil. :)

For Peter's birthday, we took out the entertainment book and thought of exploring the fine dining environment. We went to "The Sauce" and first impression, is this really fine dining? The table was a big round table with fruits painting on it. There were the proper settings but nothing glamorous.

But besides that, it was a fine dining experience; The food portion was really small. Like the ones you see on MasterChef. The wait for the food is nearly an hour. The price of was well, out of the ordinary. Minimum $30 if you're only having mains. But the entertainment book got us practically 50% off.

I have to say, I'm not used to fine dining. You have to be on your best behaviour and eat like a lady. I like mamak stalls, where you can eat however you want. Even if you're only wearing tees and shorts :)

It's 3am and it's time to hit the bed la. Stay tune for Wendy's belated birthday post :D

Flushed

2009-06-19T12:51:00.004+09:30

The library is so full of people!
I've been walking around the library for half an hour looking for an empty space with a plug for my laptop.
My double layer clothing with a backpack and a laptop certainly din make it any easier.
I'm so flushed and sweating. During winter! How is that possible? lol.
Finally gave up and went to the third floor where all the noisy ppl is studying.
Even the quiet study rooms are all booked.
Seems like everyone don't like studying at home too. Haha.
Okay gotta start listening to lecture recordings!
Listen to Mr Barry babbling away towards the end of each recording cos he had to race with time.
I can even feel his panic through his voice. lol.
Thank God for pause, rewind, play and forward button. :)
I'm only half way through the lecture notes and exam is tom noon. Arhhhhh...
Wish me luck!

At last! The flush-ness is dying away. Nerding time! 8)

Konon.. =p

Mr. Oliver

2009-06-19T00:02:00.003+09:30

Oliver Then Sze Ching. aka. SC

EXACTLY a year ago

still 2008 with biaw

and 2009! :)

Happy 21st birthday Sze Ching!

Finally, countdown is over. You're officially 21 years old! Feeling old adi? =p
Looking back, i dun quite remember how i first got to talk to you.
We were pretty much just acquaintances back in sec school through our mutual frens.
When i came to Adelaide, I din even know you're here too! hahaha.
But it's always good to know more ppl from back home here. :D
Last year I can even count how many times we met up. With biaw. Twice! Lol.
Mainly cos you went to Sydney for half a year also la.
This year, we managed to meet up more. ( Cheers to that! :) )
Movie nights.. or should i say HORROR movie nights.
I hope we've satisfied your horror movies hunger. For good!
I want ain't no more scary movies. =p
Shopping. Dinner. Wandering around. It was fun.
Sometimes your mind is not where you are but when it comes to football, or should i say man U, you're full of life! hahaha.
You and your man U scarf, sweater, t-shirt...
You always crack jokes with us and when you laugh.. LOL!
Let's just say you have a one of a kind laughter. hahahaha.

and that's how it look like. hahahaha :)

Anyways, it's your big day today!
Sorry I have exams the day after so we can't do much.
( See, got exams still got time write a blog post for you! hehehe. )
Despite that, know that we're grateful for you and wish you all the best!
Pray that you'll get your pr soon after you graduate and find a job you like. Good plan? :)
God bless ya!

Ps. Dun forget our melbourne road trip in September! hehehehe :)

June 18th

2009-06-18T00:13:00.005+09:30

Someone turned 21 today. Guess who?

models in the making. agree? muahahaha.

us in 2002. look at how cute we were! LOL
left to right, trix, me, peichen, meli, hilda, shing.
eh where's mic??

Anyways..

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY PEI CHEN!

I've known you for years and looking forward to many more years of friendship!
You've been a blessing all throughout the years and I thank God for you.
Your laughter and your craziness was always contagious.
I have indeed enjoyed your company and dun you dare change! hahaha
I still rmb back in form 2 you and wui jie sat in front of me and jonah.
We used to talk crap and play pranks on ppl :p
ie. tying cans to jonah's shoe with his shoe lace when he wasn't looking. lol.
Thinking back, did we dig a hole somewhere in the school and the five of us each put a paper in?
Was it like our wish or smt on it? LOL. I have only vague memory of it.
I wonder if it's still there! hahaha. Must be silly things we wrote inside.
In the early secondary years, the 5 of us were like inseparable.
During recess, must wait for each other, walk together, eat together.
Although in form 2 i kinda ditched you guys once in a while for prefects =p
Oh wait, no. It's you guys who ditched me with prefects first. hahaha.
A lot of memories were made. Sweet and bitter.
But one thing for sure, it would have never been the same without you!
So, here I wish you the best in life and everything you wish for. Huggsss! :)

---------------------------

Another birthday baby today too. And it's...

jus realised i din have a better pic of you in my comp.
nvm la here's you showing off your golf skills :)

Happy 22nd birthday Peter!

Lived with you for more than a year now and still learning :)
As long as you treat my sis well, I'm fine with you. haha.
Everyone's busy with work and exams so din have time to celebrate with you.
Dun worry, we'll make it up to you. :D
One year older, one year wiser!
Cheers to your success and I'm sure you'll do well in whatever you do.
By the grace of God. God bless!

evidence

2009-06-16T00:07:00.005+09:30

I've got comments that I have been growing sideways from my pics.
And so to make him eat his words..

see.. not as fat adi right? :)
and btw. no photoshop was involved kay.

On a side note. Wendy actually took a really really adorable picture of sze ching.
But..... it got deleted by the pro him. sigh.
So wanting to get it back, we made several more attempts.
but the sight of him was so funny, i was laughing till tears well up in my eyes that i barely could take a picture. lol.

closest we could get.
really.. the one that got deleted was way cuter.
imagine those cute lil kids putting both their hands on their chins :)

pre exam break

2009-06-10T22:31:00.006+09:30

exam is in a week! need to study need to study need to study.
if only telling myself that a thousand times would motivate me to. =p
i have no idea what's going on in uni this sem and i haven start studying. how dead am i?
and i still have to work full day tom. sigh.
not forgetting the sales that's going on now is tempting me so much!
why la do they have to send brochures every week?
if i dunno bout what's on sales i wont have this itchy feeling in my heart?
sure proves ignorance is bliss. heh.
speaking of shopping i'm still yet to buy birthday presents.
suddenly everyone's birthday's around the corner.
choosing the perfect gift is always a headache and time consuming.
the last time i chose a present for someone i dragged charles and julie all over The Spring and went in and out of the same stores several times.
mainly cos i couldnt make up my mind.
and when tossing a coin didn't really help, we even call and ask ppl.
that's how indecisive and perfect i wanna be.=p
any ideas anyone for the upcoming birthday babies? it would really help =)

my last few days of day off have gone pass without me opening any of the textbooks.
guilty as charged!
instead i have been watching movies and went on sinful shopping spree. :p
sinful and definitely swallowed a good amount of my hard earned pay.

i dunno what's so nice about horror movies but guys seem to like them.
and so.. with sze ching around, i was persuaded into another night of horror movies. :|

both looks extremely creepy

we ended up watching 13 ghosts only cos both me and wendy had enough dose of scary movie for one night. =p
actually it was cos we din dare to watch the ring 2.
i haven watch the ring before but the image of a girl with long black hair coming out from the tv will forever be stuck in my mind if i do.
frankly though, i kinda like the 13 ghosts.
very the kan cheong. made me so impatient watching the guy do things so slowly. feel like punching him at times. lol.

got our hearts ready to be frightened

the loner boy. hehe

over the past 2 days we went to harbour town and marion and the movie night was in between.
first day which was a public hols, me and wendy took the bus down to marion.

it felt like forever before we reach
ps. which is also where i lost my ring. sobx

most shops are not open during public hols but we thought we'll take our chances.
and after more than 30 mins bus ride, we were happy to see there were cars in the parking lot.
but turned out, only the cinema was open and some restaurants. sadness!
so that our trip wasn't a total waste..

we had hungry jacks breakkie.
now we're happy ppl. haha.

the con of living in aus is there's practically no entertainment on public hols and after 5 most shops are closed.
thank God harbourtown was open. but predictably it was packed with ppl.
felt a bit like kl searching for a space in the full car park.
oh btw, sze ching met up with us in the city and he drove us to harbourtown.
no more long journeys on the bus. hehe.

who says guys dun shop? :)

the driver. smile la! :)

wendy caught "bio-ing" hot guys xp

it just looks nice to me ^^

the clearest group pic i could get

during dinner before i head to work next door.
yes working on public hols.

and second day my camera ran outta battery so din take much pictures.
there are some in my phone but i just couldn't upload it into the comp i dunno why.
next time la when i can save the pics into the computer.

on another note, from the pics i suddenly realised how fat i've grown! :|
my face is so wideeeeeee. how many kilos have i put on??
note to self : remember to weigh myself.
blame it on the thin mirror i have in my room.
it doesnt show my chubbiness and lead me to bliving eating more fattie food will be okay. haha

okay this is a long post. tried to cut short adi. hehe
anyways, i need a miracle. to pass my exams with flying colours! :)

signing off. xoxo cinta.

just another saturday?

2009-06-07T00:01:00.003+09:30

i wanted so much to go shopping and take a day off.
so even when wendy said she had plans and my housemate said it was too late when i asked
i went anyway. alone.
when my heart was set on something i just have to do it. haha.
but was jus there for 2 hours before i have to rush to work.
and was actually late for work today cos the bus came super late :|
when i reached my colleague told me the boss was in a bad mood and was angry.
i thought i was as dead as a corpse.
then when i went to the kitchen, i looked at him, he gave me a look.
out of nowhere the words "bu hao yi shi" jus blurt out from my mouth
then surprisingly he just said i should have jus let him know if i'm gonna be late.
phew!
i dunno i should be grateful he din scold me or be despair that he was really angry before i reach.
there were lotsa take aways and not enough kitchen ppl today.
kitchen was like a mess and i dunno why my mind jus wasn't there.
mb cos i dun like things to be messy.
i really wonder why when we have so many staff working, business was dull. like yesterday night.
then today when there's less staff, the phone kept ringing at one point.
dunno if it's the lack of caffeine or the sudden busy phase, both me and annie who works with me were both lost in our own world.
i can feel my mind wasnt there with me but i can't do anything bout it.
i was slow and there were mistakes.
even dun have a big appetite for dinner after.
uncle daniel who works in the kitchen was nice enough to buy me a bottle of wine though.
says 2 glasses and you'll have a sound sleep =)

so today was the 6th. which would have been our.. fourth mensiversary.
is it really over? i do not know and trying not to think about it.
being loved at one moment and suddenly the next you're all alone, it's really hard to bear.
you cant deny the feeling of self unworthiness, unloved and unimportant.
all those confidence in yourself kinda slip away when the person that gave you that confidence tells you it's all over.
it's only up to yourself to pick yourself up in time.

my glass of wine has finished and so it's time to say goodnight :)

work work work

2009-06-06T00:34:00.003+09:30

jacinta is starting to get sick of her workplace.
worked double shifts yesterday and today.
and going to be there for the next 3 nights.
feels like the longest weekend to me.
there was some drama that happened in the workplace so last minute-ly i have to work extra.
as much as i have to really concentrate on my studies, i can't turn my back on them.
plus earning more money is always good. esp with the high exchange rate :)

end of financial year is nearing. means lotsa clearance sales going on now!
i'm soooooo temptedddd.
my hands are itchy and my heart wants to go shopping.
why do exams have to be around this time too?
but well.. how long will one harmless shopping spree take? :D

exchange rate

2009-06-03T00:57:00.002+09:30

every passing day, the value of aud to ringgit is rising.
last week it was still 2.69 and now it's 2.86?!
slowly it'll be 3 again?
i'm worried i dunno why. mb cos mum's supposed to send money over.
if she sent a month ago imagine how much more she could have sent!
feels like we're losing money to the exchange rate.
true but inevitable.

internship

2009-06-02T00:30:00.003+09:30

in the evening got a call from my parents and i called back
since i have too much unused credit =p
anyway, good newssss!!!
mum told me my aunt got an internship for me at the end of the year
how cool is that? :D
i dunno if i heard wrongly but i caught kpmg?
heard i'll be in the audit firm. coolness. tho i have NO idea in auditing. yet. heh
i was so excited i totally forgot or even care bout how LOUSY i did in my presentation this morn.
i've got an internship! :D

but the firm's in kuching apparently.
not that it's not good. it's great. transportation wise will be so much easier cos i'll have a car.
but i've also been thinking of working in kl.
get a first hand experience in the hectic working life of a busy city.
that'll be an awesome exposure wont it?
i've been living in kuching more than half my life and i jus feel like exploring smt diff from good old quiet kuching.
well we'll see. at the very least, i still have an internship! woohoooo~

btw. do NOT watch "the hottie and the nottie"!
paris hilton's acting skills seriously need improvement. major.
but if you're interested in jus looking at her modeling her body, then i say go ahead and watch.
as for me, that's one hour plus i'll never get back. ahaks.

the may baby

2009-05-31T18:47:00.007+09:30

another baby in the month of may.

and this last day belongs to the guy with lotsa mysteries n a big network.
who claims perth to be much better than adelaide.
(which is obviously false)

so i've known you since early sec school.
dun quite remember how but i remember "wow".

there was actually a period we lost contact.
but i know i can always turn to you whenever i have a problem.
you're not good in sharing your personal things but i'll give you credit for being a good listener.
and i really appreciate all the advices you gave.
you always know what i wan to hear.
while at other times, you jus wont let me win without a fight, sigh.

so here's a toast to our good old long friendship!
felt like i've known you forever bliv it or not.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY KAI :)

ps. we dun have a pic together at all!

my other miss chieng

2009-05-30T00:36:00.004+09:30

or otherwise known as Grace Chieng Siew Sya.

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!

i doubt you read my blog but if you do, next ramlee burger on me! muahahahahaha.

i would write a looooooong post but i'm too tired.

one sentence :
you've been a BLESSING

despite the constant quarrel during our early childhood :D

love ya. HUGS.

drive-through cinema

2009-05-27T22:15:00.005+09:30

imagine sitting in a car with your frens, all watching the big screen in front of you.
how cool is that?
and guess where the sound system comes from?
by tuning into the radio! awesomeness.
so you dun have to worry bout not being able to hear out in the open.
and i thot how is the rear passengers' gonna be able to watch?
but apparently where you park your car, there's a bum.
so your car's slanting backwards.
and the guys in front were very nice to not block our view as much as possible.
i actually found a very comfy spot at the back of the car :)

this is our (except sze ching) first time trying it and i tell you, it's FUN!
oh by the way we watched night at the museum 2.
dum dum is back. with minor appearances. but still wans his gum gum. hah.
i love the cute little einsteins.
3.1415........ ??? erm.. i can't rmb.

credits rolling
thanks sze ching for volunteering your car =)

it was pitch dark outside.
but we still manage to get a pic. hehe

gotta get back to assignments!

oh and btw. sze ching and wendy was over at my place.
and i beat them in foosball! hohohohoho. :)

here's proof. haha
looks like we're playing in the dark.

oh and biaw finally got to come out with us.
we gave him a day notice this time. =p

winter is near

2009-05-26T00:25:00.003+09:30

i dunno if it's me or did uni landscape changed overnight.
i haven been in uni for a week i jus realised.
as i walked into uni today, i was... amazed.
the barr smith lawn was.. whoa!
imagine brown leaves all over green pastures and huge tree in the middle with brown leaves about to fall.
okay i'm not good with descriptions =p
picture will say a thousand words but my picture just doesnt seem to do it any justice.

view from the library

this reminds me of yesterday when i had to go pick my sis' car (which she deliberately forgotten) from her fren's driveway

while walking towards the car from the bus stop
i love how smt so messy can look neat and beautiful naturally

poor thing was out in the cold for 2 days.

so that's one of the very FEW reason i like autumn =)
the lovely scenery.

winter is near guys. i've already started wearing double layers.
i think i'll need more than that when winter is actually here.

i couldnt wake up in time for lecture again today.
so ended up meeting wendy for lunch.
well i ended up jus watching her eat cos i ate at home.
and while she was eating guess what i did?

i've actually written down all the nice food we want to eat in kuching -_-

we were talking bout food (as usual), and we came to realize that we never end up eating them when we are back home!
so, this will serve as a little reminder for our dec trip home XD
of cos.. it doesnt jus stop at 15.
there's lots more to add to the list. agree? =)
like char sau rice, chicken rice..
or smt as simple as brinjal and lady fingers.

then for dinner we went to Pasta Palace at hindley street.
the entertainment book expires nex week so i'm making full use of it now.
a lil too late i know =p
wendy had tortellini and i had lasagna.
a bite into wendy's tortellini really reminded me of something.
like cheese flavour cookies during cny. i'm not sure but blehh =p
at first the service was excellent.
the owner invited us in, pulled our chairs, and the waiter was friendly.

total damage? aud 23.90 for two.
one main was complimentary and 4 dollars for drinks.
what?! $4 for drinks? we only had TAP water!
4 bucks for water we can find anywhere. @!##$@%$#%*&!@
so unreasonable. we wasted ~rm12 for practically nothing. hmmmm.
at first there was a chance we'll go back for second time but now, NOPE.
when we were paying, there weren't anymore friendly services.
the owner din even flash a tiny smile.
like a completely diff person we saw at the door.
dunno if it was because they found out we were using vouchers or all the smiley actions were jus a way to lure you into dining in.
but well at least he din lie when he say the food is good.
we were full halfway through but as usual i finished everything for both of us.
i was blottteedd. =)

the overdue post =)

2009-05-25T02:06:00.008+09:30

last week, me, wendy and sze ching met up for an impromptu dinner.
biaw din join us cos apparently biaw wasn't impromptu enough. haha!
no la. it was jus bad timing. everytime we call him it's either he's eating or he's eaten.

so anyway, we went to Daniel's on rundle street.
main reason we were there was cos it was in the entertainment book.

fillet mignon

crumbed whitings

chili prawns with pasta

ooo it all looks nice doesnt it?
well thanks to my pro skill in capturing it. hahaha
apparently, we all kinda agreed it was not what we expected.
it was pricey for one.
and the portion was super small. well comparatively here.
the food wasn't THAT bad la.
it's jus for an aud30 dish it's not quite up to the standard it's supposed to bring.

after our tummy's filled.

*second attempt*

group pic on our way out. i like this =)

jus when we thought the night is over, we came to another random decision.
*looks at watch*
"oh it's just past 9! still can catch star trek!" says wendy.
at the beginning of the dinner, we thot it'll be too late for a movie after.
but who knows, spontaneously, we walked to the cinema down the street.

bought our tickets without 2nd thought.
mb cos it's 6 bucks.
palace nova offers aud6 for students the whole month of may :D
normally it'll be at least 10.

what jus happened?
"i'm on a movie date with 2 ladies!"

so... it was star trek that night.

i haven watch angels and demons yet but wendy has.
and i've never actually watched star trek before OR even actually finish watching star wars.
i'm not quite a fan i guess.
but wendy has rumours that everyone's complimenting on star trek though they weren't star trek fan.
so i thought why not? =)
and turned out it was pretty good.
cant quite catch ALL the details but at least i got the storyline. hehe
btw chris pine was cute! lol
but wendy supports spark in the movie.

"live and prosper"

unpredictable

2009-05-23T00:45:00.004+09:30

of all things unpredictable, the weather in aus is definitely one of them.
it's winter next month and yet it can be warm and cozy this few days.
last week was super cold and today was sunny with cool breeze. nice =)

i've finally told my boss at the caffe that i dun wanna work the next 6 weeks.
but turns out.. she was pissed. :|
she kept telling me over and over again how disappointed and pissed she is.
that i chose to take a break from the caffe and not the restaurant considering I've started working there first.
but truthfully, i dun quite like working there. it's more tiring with less fascinating environment.
well i cant exactly tell her that.
so all i could say was er..... sorry. sorry. sorry.
she put me in such difficult situation.
but i know she is too. now she has to find someone to take my friday shift.
cant please everyone huh?

i'm lazy to upload those pictures i took with sze ching and wendy now. =p
so a glimpse?

angels and demons or star trek?

weekend is here!

2009-05-21T23:28:00.004+09:30

i should be happy. but i'm dragging the next few days.
today has been an incredibly tired day.
worked since 11.30 this morning till 10 plus jus now.
with less than 2 hours break in between.
and tom is gonna be the same! arhhhhhh!
sat night and even sun night i'm working this week.
the manager is taking a month and a week of hols starting today.
means i might have to work extra shifts for the next five weeks. :\
i dun wannnn! i've still got an assignment and a presentation due!
and exam's in a month!
but i am yet to tell them the limit of shifts i should take.
it has to be SOON.

i'm so tired now i think i need my sleep.
tom have to wake up at 7 =(
good thing is, i'm gonna tell my caffe that i wan a break starting next week till july.
means no more early mornings for me! XD
yesterday night went out with wendy and sze ching.
will post them when i'm less tired and more free =))
cheerios!

wordless

2009-05-20T03:29:00.004+09:30

i spent the whole day at home today. jus din feel like going out.
then felt better at night after spending some fun time with sis, peter and john.
which had involved cards, chips, coins, and mcD.

while i was online the whole day today, i made a resolution to update my blog frequently.
well i know it's a lil late for new year's resolution but better late than never?

anyway, as i was gonna start blogging jus now, i came across another blog entry.
anything concerning death is heartfelt sadness to me.
my heart went out to them (and him) that have lost someone close to them.
it reminded me of the time i lost my grandpa. 4 years ago.
he died of cancer and he was in klang while i was in kuching that time.
we received the call close to midnight and there was jus silent in the house.
the next day we flew back to klang and the atmosphere was jus... sad.
i still miss him now.
his image may be getting more vague each year but the memories of him is still close to my heart.
he's so wise and loving in his own ways.
i hope he's in heaven watching over us right now.

whatever topic that i intended to blog about before, i jus dun feel like blogging anymore.
i hope he'll be alright.
from the days i've known him, he's not the kind that likes talking bout his feelings.
so i can only pray for you from afar.
i know you have your own way to deal with this.
*hugs*

Eurovision

2009-05-19T00:26:00.003+09:30

last night, came across Eurovision 2009 on tv.
had no idea that such thing existed till then! haha
but i must say.. it's pretty entertaining. *grinn*
even learned a few russian words. (it was held in moscow)
"dus puah" means 12 points. muahahaha
i was rooting for iceland or uk to win, but it was so obvious in the beginning that norway was gonna win with that huge lead in points.
not exactly sure though how he managed to attract ppl to support him time and time again till he beats the record on the total points received.
but anyway, congrats la norway.
wendy thinks he's cute. haha! and john thinks he's annoying -_-
i'm gonna download that song and put it as my ringtone jus to annoy him back. hahahaha
but cause the song was stuck in my head also.
it's not too bad after a while.
here's where you can watch it on youtube =)

a day off

2009-05-18T22:59:00.003+09:30

guess where did wendy and i go tonight?

the library! muahahaha.

sound nerdy? =p
but wait........

this is what we did. XD
not so guai anymore?

so, last night wendy came to my place to stay.
watched some tv and played some cards.
important note : wendy learned "dai di" and blackjack! wooohooo! lol.
turned out it wasn't too hard for her. =)
john came to join us, then after he went to sleep, we had our pillow talk session.
while half watching some movie coincidentally shown on tv with naked scene of nicole kidman :|
that followed by sermons aired on tv.
ended up sleeping on the couch at 6am.
then woke up at 12 smt and hang around the house.
watched "friends" first season which was surprisingly hilarious though it has been ages.
i've actually never really watched friends earlier in my teenage-hood. heh

oh and another historical moment (quote and unquote) made today.
wendy's first trip to harbourtown this year!
which by the way is a shopping place.
i've been there like.. hmm... 4 times this year and wendy's never been there since last year! lol.
she bought an esprit top while me... with nothing. which happens pretty rarely. hahaha.
my self-control worked pretty well today XD

then we went back to the city for dinner. at the same taiwanese restaurant we went last time.
she had what i had last time. and me.. trying to be diff this time ordered the hot and sour noodle soup.
and we both shared a bowl of dumplings. "xiao lung bao"
bad choice really.. cos we could hardly breath when we walked out the restaurant.
so super the full! lol
the portion is so huge. equivalent to 2 plates in msia. (man, i miss msia)
but i'm the kind that dont like wasting ended up finishing what i ordered although i was already full halfway through.
aussie food is encouraging binging i tell you. not good!

that's what i had. it's not too bad la.
and that's wendy caught eating her portion at the back. ahaks!

it gets so dark so early these days, i hate having to walk home from the bus stop alone.
so waited for my sister to finish work to catch a bus back together.
and.... that's how we ended up at the uni's library. :)
we were both pretty sleepy from the lack of sleep and din have a laptop to use.
plus, the beanbags were sooo comfy, so cant blame us for falling asleep!

oh and total damage for dinner today? (quote from kif)
aud 22.50 for two

love story meets viva la vida

2009-05-17T02:15:00.004+09:30

billy showed me this few weeks ago.
since then i'm in love with it.
i have always liked love story, the lyrics and the music.
the song brings you into a fairytale with happy ending.
i've heard of viva la vida before but have never paid too much attention to it.
now, it's in my fav song list. if i have one. haha

the video "wow"ed me. it prompted me to search for the piano scores.
and i did :)
i searched and searched and got addicted.
ended up with a pile of piano scores. lol
anyway, here's where you can get the love story scores if anyone's interested.
i tell you, it's satisfying when you master the piece.

a journal entry

2009-05-17T00:57:00.005+09:30

marley and me.
jus came out in dvd here n finally got to watch it :)
i'm not very much of a dog person but tears jus fell towards the ending of the movie.
i tell you, it's so touching and sad.
thank God i was watching it alone. haha :)

exam's timetable jus came out two days ago.
for the first time, my exam's spread over the whole two weeks of exam period.
it used to be jus during the first week.
well it's time to study! like REALLY.
i totally have no idea what's going on in finance subs.
anyway, 3rd of july will mark the beginning of my close-to-one-month of study-free period :))

it has actually been a month.
i dunno how had i survived it.
i find that when i was busy with my assignment, i had less time to bother bout my feeling, the emptiness that i might feel once in a while.
no one really know what had happened between us.
except for those that i was chatting with and they asked me bout us.
i cant jus say "oh we're both good" can i?

so my aunt asked me today.
din know if i should pretend everything was okay or jus tell her.
but i did tell her and i said it was the distance that caused it.
well which was part of the reason.
may not be the major part but ya.

i was then browsing around and came to someone i know's blog.
she seems to be going through what i'm going through too. or was.
i dun know her personally but i wanted to tell her i understand how she feels.
how it feels not to be able to hold on cos you're the only that wans it.
how hard it was being in a ldr. despite that, how much you're willing to give to make it work.
how stupid it may be to jump into a relationship so soon.
knowing someone on the same boat made me realise that it's okay to feel broken.
it's okay to cry your hearts out.
and it gave me a new perspective to look at this "life experience"
there will be times when my feelings will play tricks with my mind.
there will be times when i cant focus and start wondering bout my sad life.
but you know what? it's all normal.
i still dont know how he can move on so fast but i'm gonna go at my own pace.
anyway, like trix said, why settle for second best when God has the best in store for you?
all this can wait i'm sure.
*hugs*

i haven been blogging. so pardon me for the long post.
and by the way, for the record, he is a nice guy. and he's still a friend. (:

peace

2009-04-26T23:25:00.004+09:30

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

John 14:27

where's my peace?

2009-04-26T01:01:00.003+09:30

jacinta is tired.
tired of pretending that nothing is wrong in front of him when everything is just so so wrong.
so tired.
what do i have to do to untangle all these feelings?
this cannot go on. no it cannot.
where is my peace of mind?

m&m's again =)

2009-04-24T14:29:00.003+09:30

This is what a normal m&m's should be.

And this is what I've got.
Now you get what i mean? =p

ps : so kif, is my blog "brighter" now? :)

rainn

2009-04-24T14:05:00.003+09:30

it has started raining yesterday morning and has been that way since.
and rumours had it that it's going to be like this for a week.

personally i don't like the rain.
i like the sound and how it's nice to stay in on rainy day.
but rainy days ruin your day out.
your jeans get wet and you feel moody.
and all you want to do is stay in the house under your warm blanket.

right now, the rain reminds me of home.
home sweet home.
a place i wish i am at right now.

staying in on a rainy day :)

"cheerfulness"

2009-04-24T13:51:00.002+09:30

and so.. kif asked me this morning if i can add things to my blog to make it more "cheerful".
but the truth is.. life now is not that.
i'm trying to move on very much and yet i miss him everyday.
with assignments piling up, holidays ending soon and not forgetting work.
life is hard to get by each day.
sometimes i wonder.. what's the purpose of life?
but hey it's not a suicidal thought jus for your info :)
it jus feels like nothing's right at this moment.
no matter what i do. facebooking, catching up series, making myself very busy..

recently been listening to a certain jay chou song.
"shuo hao de xing fu ne"
like everything else though, it'll pass wont it?

and kif, i'll find some pics to put up soon :)

m&m's

2009-04-18T15:48:00.002+09:30

bought m&m's today. like 4 packets. cos it's on sale. lol.
but when i opened one of them........

it's all yellow in colour! whatttt.....???!!!
where's my colourful m&m's???
even tot it's defected!

then look at the packaging.
"colour break-up"
chehh!
some competition thing where you win if you can find a packet with mixed colour of m&m's in it.
what the....
now it doesn't look like m&m's anymore.
blehhh. i wan my colourful m&m's!

unpredictable much?

2009-04-14T23:42:00.003+09:30

I dunno where to start. My mind is like in all different places!
There is this emptiness inside and yet there's a subconscious mind telling me that I've got assignments due soon and a test due this Friday.
And I should be putting my thoughts on what's important, shouldn't I?
But I'm missing the way things were!
On one Friday night, I followed my guts and made a random and spontaneous decision.
And surprise surprise! It was a roller coaster ride.
Right now, it's at its bottom-most. Of which will prolly end right there.
Maybe it just isn't meant to happen. Maybe it never was.
Only God knows. And who else should I trust?

Unpredictable? Random? Extraordinary? Excitement? You had your wish.

a quiet saturday

2009-03-08T03:38:00.002+10:30

it's the weekend!
and i've got the next few days off after 2 days of work.
and so does he.
but somehow i've seen less of him than any other days.
is that how it's supposed to be?
us not even communicating?
maybe he's the kind that doesn't like getting tied down.
maybe i shouldn't tie him down.
and so maybe i shouldn't get my emotion too attached.
it's probably time to set my priorities right.
i can't go on like this.

a new start

2009-03-04T00:47:00.003+10:30

it has been a while ey.
doubt i have readers that follow my blog but it's nice to read back what i've written.
brings back good memories. =)
which is why i should start posting regularly. heh

two months in malaysia has passed and little did i know, many things has changed.
unfailingly, many good memories was formed.
i've actually got closer to some ppl whom i never thot i will.
well there are still things that i wanted to do but didn't, but it's all good =)
one of the things that has changed was my heart.
though it was only a short period of time, my heart was touched in a way it hasn't been in a long time.
i know everyone was shocked and even i myself was.
everyone keep telling me how quick i've come to a decision.
how i should know him longer and let him do a bit of chasing at least.
but well i dunno why i jus had this urge in my heart to jus do it.
what will happen in the future, we dont know.

coming back to adelaide, everything seems familiar.
and yet felt different on the first night.
for the first time i actually felt the time difference.
actually felt the distance.
to have thought it's not going to be that tough is a wrong assumption.
i tell you. it's harder than you think.
i know he's busy. i understand. at least i try to.
if i wan this to work i've got to be really considerate.
i've got to be optimistic at all time.
but darn. why does it have to be so hard?

all i can do is pray.
pray that it'll work.
pray that we both wont get hurt.

christmas

2008-12-17T00:28:00.002+10:30

christmas is here.
bringing good cheer, to everyone.
..... lalalala....
a song from the opening item in paradise's chirstmas carols.

i've been here in adelaide for almost a year.
it doesnt seem short nor long.
and soon it's christmas!
ppl here seems to put more importance in this event than back home
which is an eye opener. =)
some rich ppl will light up their whole house with lights
and those lights are shaped into all kinds of pictures.
which looks really attractive.

of ALL time..
this is when i come down with a sore throat.
which doesnt exactly hurt a lot.
just me having no voice at all.
since saturday. out of nowhere.
and i was planning on joining the church christmas carol choir.
this being my first christmas here and all, i tot of doing smt different.
i was so determined that i attended all of their practises and even arrange my work shifts according to the rehearsals.
we were supposed to sing at the lightshow on monday and i missed out on it.
the real thing is this friday n it's wednesday already.
will i really not be able to go on with my plan?
blehhh i need prayerss!
my voice sound so rough now and it's so hard to even serve customers at work.
they can hardly hear me.
try raising my voice and what comes out is a squeak.
it's annoying.

praying! =)

time

2008-12-07T03:25:00.001+10:30

it flies.
little did i know i've been here coming to a year adi.
i've surprisingly finished a third of my uni life.
who says uni life is easy for stpm students?
i dun think so.
even with commerce subjects, which ppl claim to be easier than science subjects.

and little did i know, it's been a year since my heart was wounded.
i can now safely say that time heals.
it might not be a month, or a year.. but time does heal. (provided you dun add salt to your wound)
memories will forever be left behind but heartache fades away slowly and quietly.
it does kill you on the inside in the beginning but that's a phase in life isnt it?
even the strongest person on earth will tremble and fall when it comes to feelings.
we are all human.
and scars will remain.
if the scar is not well taken care of, the wound might reappear any second.
but if it is protected with band aid, only the memory of it will stick with you
dun let it get infected because if that same scar turns into a wound again,
the second time around it's gonna hurt even more.
but do not be afraid to fall again because then only you'll learn to pick yourself up and mature with experience.
to all those who got your heart broken,
im with you.
and God bless you :)

if i can turn back time i would have dealt with the situation a lil differently.
i would have let go sooner if i knew it'll hold me back with a wound that's so much deeper.
but i've once heard.. love is messy.
so let it be.

blog updated

2008-12-07T02:18:00.001+10:30

after a year of not touching this blog, im back. =)
friendster's blog is simple and easily accessible but the fact that everytime i post smt, everyone on my list is notified is pretty... annoying.
tried to find the off button somewhere but blehh blogspot may jus be the quickest answer.
so yeah from now on, this shall be permanently where i rant and ramble.

results were out like weeks ago and phew how happy i was!
though it's only P's, im grateful XD
what can i expect right when i myself did not do much preparation at all.
and thus...
my resolution for next year :
1. no skipping tutes and lectures
2. no last minute studying
but knowing how we humans ALWAYS stray from our goal esp when it comes to studying.. i doubt this will last too.
anyhow, God bless me :)
speaking of which, I do owe it to the big guy above for passing my exams.
thankssss! and You know im thankful.
btw wendy got to sit for supp on friday.
im praying for you girl!
i know you'll do well.
with God on your side, nothing is impossible =)

past week I've been well.. either working (not much) or staying home doing nothing.
feeling a lil guilty cos i was gonna work my ass off during my hols in ade.
before enjoying my hols in good old kuching.
now that the indian job is gone, i'm only earning enough to cover my rent for that month.
meaning, no pocket money to spend! not here, not msia.
not forgetting the rent i still have to pay here when im back in msia.
had actually send my resume to a few places but no success =(
i guess my resume was not attractive enough.
ppl like me who's not bold enough to "exagerate" has a dull resume. =p
was hoping to score a job at malls but oh wells.
however, recently got a job at a chinese restaurant not too far from my place.
tried out for two days and still pretty blur bout their system.
but after a few more shifts, hopefully it'll be alright.
oh no, that's a wrong usage of word. according to ab.
so rewind.. i hope it'll be alright =)
anyways, i think what i lack is PR skills. definitely.

countdown to Kuching :
30 days.

right thing.... or not

2007-10-12T21:10:00.000+09:30

is what i'm doing the right thing?
i'm trying hard to be understanding and do what's right.
but sometimes i jus cant control my thinking.
he says it's the best solution.
for him yes. for us i'm not sure.
will we have happy ending?
or will we end up suffering in a triangle again.
sharing is virtue but in this i'm not sure.
all i can do now is hope that things will have a turn around soon.